Friends :)

I have been thinking a lot about graduation, even though I still have a couple years to go. What is going to happen with me and my closest friends? are we going to stay in touch? what if we completely forget eachother?
and of course it doesn't help whenever I listen to the song Graduation by Vitamin C. One of my friends is graduating this year, she's the one who introduced me to this song a couple years ago, and every time I think about the time she showed me it, it reminds me of how we met. It's kinda funny actually, my dog is the one who made us friends. I guess we could have been friends any time we wanted but we were both shy and she just moved beside me so we might not have even talked. But now we are pretty good friends, we don't talk as much as we used to, but she's always inviting me to her birthday's and sleepovers, and meeting the kittens (or cats) her family takes in to foster. She's always so nice! and not only her but her whole family!
Which brings me to my other friends, they are all so nice, and supportive! they'll help me with whatever i'm having trouble with, if it's with personal issues or school, they're always there!
sometimes I feel like I am just annoying them by hanging around with them, or being a bad influence because i don't take school as seriously (by not studying, or carying about my grades) as any of them, but they're always there reminding me when a test is or when the due date is for my assignments or if I go in to the humane society or something that day. They are awesome! :) and it's so cool that i can talk to each and every one of them about different things, than have to have the same conversation with 7 or 8 different people.
With Ariel I can always ask about God, and what her honest oppinion is about anything, and another person ( neighbor who's name is J.G.) I can be totally random and spaz out with her. With Me.T I can always share a good laugh with her, because she's just so calm and friendly. Mo.T and I like to tease eachother a lot ( screen door! ;P) It's just so easy because we can get the best reactions out of each other! And then there's D.F. who will laugh at anything, she's so carefree it's relaxing to be around her. Like I said, each and every one of them are different. The point of this blog is I wanted to clearly explain to my friends how much they mean to me, and I'm thankful they are all in my life! Thank you guy's soooooooooo much!!!

japanese music :)

okay, so i was listening to a song from one of the anime's i've watched and this song gives me chills every time i listen to it. even though i don't relate to it at all. i don't think... maybe my subconcious is telling me something. but anyways it's just so pretty i had to share it :) it's also the story behind this song, it was just so sad! :P wow i am in need of a life. here's the vid! it has english translation too! so here it is:

i really hope you like it! i'm so proud of myself i can almost sing a whole japanese song from memory and know some of the words in english XD it's called phantom minds by nana mizuki. look it up! :) that's all for today!

exams, and relationships...random?

hello!

   i haven't written on here in a long time!
well anyways i wanted to talk about exams.
they are coming. awfully soon.
i have 3 exams this semester. E.L.A., Math, and American History :S they're all pretty hard except ELA.
   We studied Romeo and Juliet in LA, but i was pretty disappointed. before i read the story i thought Romeo was this brave, macho, manly-man. but he's actually a wimp! like seriously near the end of the story he's crying because he'd rather be dead than be banished from Verona...
and at the beginning he's off crying and sulking over a girl that he "loved" that turned him down... i guess i don't really like guys who cry more than me.. hmmm...
i don't know, maybe i'm just picky.
oh well.
   I see couples in the hallway all the time, and sometimes i wonder what they feel for each other. like some people will just start dating to get some one else jealous, or to get attention, or they might actually love eachother. but once they break up they are frantic to find another person to date. For some reason i see mostly girls do this. it annoys me. Maybe it's because i don't really feel the need to date right now, but it's still annoying. like they can't stand on their own, they have to be with someone. Everyone has their own opinions though, this is just mine. Sometimes people change completely when they are in a relationship, like they'll start neglecting their friends, or have an 'i'm-all-that' kind of attitude. i'm grateful for my one of my friends because she acts just like she always does, and she's dating someone. anyways i realized something yesterday, and it explains why i'm always trying to run away from relationships and dating. i've been asked out a couple of times, but i always got scared and turned them down. i'm hoping i can grow up and face my fears, take a chance, in this new year :)